July 10th.
A year ago today Jon proposed.
We were on a morning walk looking for seashells and talking.
His plane had come in late the night before.
The ring wasn't supposed to be here yet.
The surprise, being with him on the beach after not seeing him for a few days, the good feelings, wondering what the future held, my dream ring..
It was a great day.
I was so excited to start a new journey with him!
I had no idea what would lie ahead.
July 10th.
My son's due date.
26 weeks along, before we knew about his heart defect
I had an app on my phone that would give me information about the baby as I hit certain milestones.
I stopped checking it after Jon was born two months early and passed away.
Today my phone buzzed.
"Congrats on your new baby, Mama!"
It brought back the sad feelings.
But it also brought a little bit of joy.
Jon Gabriel Bowen is our son, and he's the most beautiful boy in the whole world.
He is still very much apart of our family.
We will see him again.
Because of that, today is a good day.
