We went to our second ultra sound a couple of days ago..

It's crazy how different the 21 week and 16 week are from each other.

Even though it has only been 5 weeks, the baby looked so much bigger!

I kept thinking, "Is all that really inside of me??"

We also found out that she is actually a he!

It's a boy:)

That took some mental readjustment! Everyone thought we'd have a boy, including both of us. It just felt like it would be.

So when the technician told us it was a girl we were surprised, but excited:)

Let's be honest everything about this pregnancy has been a surprise, so of course it's actually a boy now!

He was moving around a ton when we went. We even saw his little hand move back and forth on the screen like he was waving.

What a cutie.

He must get it from me:)

I will post the pictures soon!

You probably know by now that we are expecting!

July 10th:)

20 weeks away!

However, not many know the confusion and the

"What in the worlds.."

that had to be overcome in order to come to grips with that fact.

Now I can honestly say we are SO excited!

But let's just be honest here.. It didn't start out that way.

Ahem.

So, I woke up on Black Friday morning and I felt kinda sick. However, this had been the norm for the past month or longer.

Not so sick I couldn't do anything. I just always felt a little sea sick, kinda weird.

I never get sick, so I didn't make a big deal out of it. I barely missed any of my classes during fall semester, and kind of just ignored how I felt.

But that Black Friday morning, something was off.

And I know you're thinking, well duh you just had a Thanksgiving feast the night before.

But I just had this.. feeling. Something else might be going on. Pregnancy crossed my mind for the first time that morning, but I pushed it aside. There was NO way.

Later, Jon suggested we spend the day shopping. Yes, he wanted to spend the day shopping.

Obviously I wasn't gonna turn that down.

So we shopped all day! So much fun, I love that guy. We only bought a few things but it was a blast:)

That evening, we were in Target. It wasn't until we were heading to leave that I had this thought that I should purchase some pregnancy tests.

Jon knew I hadn't been feeling well. But both of us didn't even think pregnancy would be the reason at all since I was on birth control and took that pill like it was my job.

Anyway I said,

"Can we grab some pregnancy tests JUST so I can be at peace knowing that's not the reason?"

He said it was a good idea.

So we did.

3 positive tests later and here we are.

It took me until just a a couple months ago to stop being in denial.

As guilty as I feel looking back,

I just couldn't shake the thought that : This wasn't supposed to happen yet.

These feelings continued for the next month and a half until my 12 week appointment.

When we heard the heart beat ♥ ♥ ♥

I've been in love ever since!

Even though we had to start from scratch on everything we had planned, we have been so blessed already to have found a plan where I can still finish my degree and even work from home in the process.

And after a few months I'll be back to work, because Jon's school will slow down and he will just be working as an EMT twice a week.

Life is going to go on.

Not only that, I can't shake the feeling something amazing is about to take place.

We are so excited to meet her:)